Blargle
Sick note, my BP keeps sky rocketing, then going back down. Diastolic number won't go under 90 though. Systolic has been as low as 105.
So yes. I had a reading of 105/90 recently. I felt weird as fuck.
My pulse dropped to 48 last night too.
Now I keep getting the feeling I would get before I'd pass out, but it's just like a flash of it for a few seconds instead of half a minute of OH GOD WHATS GOING ON. But I still don't like it
Also. My brother informed me that before I passed out, I was just sitting in the chair for like 2 or 3 minutes, leaning back in it. While he was trying to talk to me, the dog was barking at me and trying to get close though my brother was shooing her off. Then he went to get the phone, to call my parents, who happened to be out. THEN my eyes rolled back and I slumped.
I don't remember any of this.
FUN ALL AROUND
- Mood:
worried
I was just able to skype with my brother, so that's the first time we've been able to chat and see one another in at least two years. I do feel bad that I have to keep saying, 'well, the money should be better in a couple months, and then I can come to see you all.'. Because it just doesn't for various reason's. And then I am bad with keeping up with too many people because it is exhausting. I should keep in contact with my long lost sister, but I just don't have the energy. I think it is possibly a feeling of anxious I get after having interactions with people that I don't see most of the time. I like my sister in law a lot, but I just don't feel able to call her up (which is part of why I like skype chats - I can talk to everyone at once.). This'll be something to work on in counseling, and it seems to be a variation on the problems I have interacting with people.
I learned today that my sister is in contact with my brother and his wife. Apparently she wants to leave home, but then my parents give her something and she decides they love her and she loves them. Classic victim behavior. I suggested she should leave, and he said she has no resources. I don't believe that. She'll have a steep learning curve, but even having nothing is better than an abusive situation. Anyway, I want to see what resources I can find. I decided awhile back that if she wanted out, I would help. I don't have money to throw at this, but I understand she has a job and is in college (with predictably unrealistic ideas for her future.) so she won't start out with nothing. She definitely can't come live with me, but there is be somewhere for her. The world is huge.
Anyway, More thinking on that tomorrow. Any advice on how to convince someone to leave an abusive situation would be most helpful.
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anxiousYeah, things are not perfect, but I still feel like I'm hitting all these highs lately and things feel like they are actually improving. Still a long long long way to go but I feel like I am making progress and it's just.... exhilarating, honestly! It feels like it's building on itself too - like all these little successes are making me more confident and willing to try things that are tough for me. So I guess the "vicious circle" can run backwards and be a good thing too.
Andandand <3 Zack is awesome and I gotta thank him for carting me around and yapping with me and making everything wonderful.
- Mood:
thankful
- What the hell is this? Changed the lens mounts on these webcams & suddenly none are seen by camera software anymore, but ARE detected by XP! 00:19:26, 2012-05-27
- Before I go to Expo tomorrow will have to test original cam I experimented on, see if that still works fine. If so means 4 cams buggered. 00:26:41, 2012-05-27
- Back from day out. However phone won't turn back on after being underground. Locks up at startup white screen. 23:57:14, 2012-05-27
- Removed battery for a bit. Now got it charging a little before attempt to reactivate it again. :/ 23:58:42, 2012-05-27
Mirrored from The blog-hub for Peter "Sci" Turpin.
A new pup will be joining me in a few weeks. A baby border collie. I'm so excited. I can't wait to have a dog that might actually do dog things, like run and fetch and swim and just PLAY. Hydee never did any of those. It was such a bummer.
Totally watching a guy smack his dog in the mouth now. Whaa :(
Juneau is nice, bigger than Ketchakan. Tomorrow on to Skagway.
Hope everyone is good, will write more when I get home. Typing on iPad is slow.
Edit: What's this? Looks like I missed something amusing:
Originally Posted by Blizzard Entertainment
Arthas Fighting Guards in Orgrimmar?
Thanks for the report! We’re aware of this issue and are in the process of applying a hotflix so that Arthas and company remain back where they belong. (Blue Tracker / Official Forums)
Edit: and updating on me going completely against betta keeping...shes well, ghost cant swim fast enough to catch her, and ignores her most of the time, hes just not really interested...though she hates the rams too...maybe. She flares at them, and then puts up her breeding stripes. ....well... Who knows..She was interested in ghost too and kept swimming around him but shes kinda gave that up. No stress stripeys.
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artslam is back for another summer of artistic mayhem. Choose your subject, choose how many months you want to do and get ready to draw at least one thing every day towards your goal!Easy, Medium and Hard begin on June 1st.
Info including sign ups are of course over here - and you can also find them on Tumblr too this year.
As per usual I'm doing Hard mode (Four years in a row good lord) though this is going to be a special one. Back in November/December I promised Yas this one would be dedicated to Realm crap because there is very little art from it despite being around far longer than the Notalope or Mahu has. However since she died back in January, I have decided to turn it into a dedication to Yas in the form of Realm which without her may never have happened beyond the initial nonsensical rubbish I was trying to come out with.
It's gonna be the celebration of one of my best friends I had the pleasure of knowing/arguing/doing crazy shit with for over eight years and died too young.
Because of this I plan to have the bare minimum of Toucagryph left over by Friday. I'll also continue to attempt fighting OpenCanvas as the Yen is actually getting stronger right now leaving Sai out the picture for the near future. It's gonna be a tough one for all the wrong reasons :)
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